Handout page 1 for a midterm presentation I worked really hard on.
I’ll be getting my AA in product development in exactly a year then dedicating another two years of my life to getting my BA in business management.
My first year of college was intense. I started a month after I graduated high school. Spontaneously moved to Berkeley. Became a workaholic. I went through an excessive amount of setbacks. An emotional rollercoaster filled with family and ex-boyfriend dilemmas. Coped with it on my own since the only people I confided in moved to another country and to Socal. (With my personality, I just made it as if I wasn’t affected by a single thing. Alcohol helped too. But that’s just face value.) Then again, keeping it to myself was how I was able to cope with so many things happening all at once. And I didn’t use anything I went through as an excuse to not accomplish what I set my heart on. I sometimes wish I would have but I would have just cheated myself.
I look at everyone around me, I may not know them but I know that everyone goes through their own trials and suffering. So my problems and I are no exception.
Bad to keep things in but life goes on. It helped that I am not much of a party girl and did not go out much. Quality self time gets you thinking and it got me to appreciate everything that did go right. It wasn’t much but things still went as I had hoped.
I got through my first year on my own, put in a lot of work, dedication and heart to receive the good grades that I wanted, built an exceptional work ethic, became less social, built an amazing relationship with my mother&brothers, put in time to become a dedicated companion to a guy and I am in a much happier place.
It takes a while but being self-motivating is very rewarding.
“it was her life, only hers, and she was going to live it the way she wanted, for herself”
I enjoy staying in. I do love meeting new people. So if you want to hang out, how about some beer, a movie, fatty foods, and a chill night? I’ve grown out of my partying stage. But I am not knocking it down. I just have an interest in a different type of setting.
I always think theres something wrong with me when it comes to living the life a normal 19 year old should live. I should be out there “living my life”. But the thing is, I am. Just in a different manner.
“It isn’t until you stray from your habits that things are set into motion, that you begin to grow”
I love my life.
Because I found true happiness inside of myself, knowing who I am and what I want.
I definitely need to head back to San Diego asap. Do an all day session for my arm and drink on the beach.
I have been way too caring this past week. I need to stop that sensitive shit.
Saw my pops the other day. All I could think of was our love for the same bands and Bring your Daughter to the Slaughter. As did my brother. At least he left us with some good knowledge in music. Throw up the horns.
I don’t smoke cigarettes but I drink far too often.
Jack is my favorite straight from the bottle, no chaser.
I hate dying other people’s hair but I’m doing it for his birthday.
I allowed myself to be open. Thats why it worked.
I don’t like to reblog. Lol
We got two new pups yesterday named Chowder and Chief. Chowder likes clawing at my chest and Chief is lazy, like me. We had a puppy party yesterday and they partied too hard.
Aaron makes me happy. Very happy. I heart him. My gay ass….
My best friend’s birthday was yesterday. I drank for him. Happy BirthYesterDay Glenn!
"It was her life, only hers, and she was going to live it the way she wanted, for herself."
Aaron gave me that shirt. I am very happy about it.
This next month will be nice. It will help me recuperate.
I am moving Wednesday.
I have a friend who told me that I should make a scrapbook of all my thoughts. I thought this to be a grand idea. I am inspired by the littlest of things everyday. This calls for a ton of disposable cameras and I prefer to do it with a handbound notebook.
You know what inspires me? The faith that other people have in me.
My trip in San Diego was amazing. I took more videos than pictures. But I don’t have a video editing program to make a nice video compilation.
It was nice to have Mico around. It’s pleasant to have someone to talk to without having to dumb down my conversations. It was nice to explain to someone where I want to go in life, how I plan to get there, and what I have done thus far to further myself.
I am planning to take another trip down there in the next two months.
Plus, I want to finish up my arm.
I’ve got some bright ideas involving you and me.
I am becoming very invested in this guy. Lets hope my tendency to mess things up simmers down this time around.
I am on a mission to find Everything is Illuminated.
I really would like to elaborate on this guy but then It will just show how gay I am.
I need to do something to my hair.
I have been in the best of moods for a while now.
I never talk about anything important.
I got a lot of followers out of nowhere… I barely even blog… I feel bad.
"She was not a girl who could be "won" in the kinetic sense-she was proof against cleverness, she was proof against charm; if any of these assailed her too strongly she would immediately resolve the affair to a physical basis, and under the magic of her physical splendor the strong as well as the brilliant played her game and not their own. She was entertained only by the gratification of her desires and by the direct excercise of her own charm. Perhaps from so much youthful love, so many youthful lovers, she had come, in self-defense, to nourish herself wholly from within."
I have been having more than enough fun lately.
I probably have not slept in over 36 hours.
I have been to over six doctors in the past few days.
I got a new phone. I suck with electronics.
Savin’s birthday is coming up and I am going to spoil him.
I want change and excitement. Not infinite security.
It is bizarre how so much can grow in so little time.
I am happy with myself.
I want someone who shares the same ideals as I do. Who is driven to do the best they can in anything they pursue. Who will wake up next to me and be willing to go on a rididculous last minute road trip. Who will take my constructive criticism and realize that I want the best for them. Who will rub skins and be entirely comfortable with. I want someone to take care of. Someone to make feel special. Someone that I will allow myself to be silly around. Someone who is just as scared as I am to commit. Someone I can push to the limit.
I want want want.
Then I realize that I do not actually want anyone.
Well maybe that was a little fib but that is how it goes.
"I do not love; I do not love anybody except myself. That is a rather shocking thing to admit. I have none of the selfless love of my mother. I have none of the plodding, practical love… . . I am, to be blunt and concise, in love only with myself, my puny being with its small inadequate breasts and meager, thin talents. I am capable of affection for those who reflect my own world." -S.P.
“I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.”—
Eventful days pretty much sums up what’s been up lately.
Chi’s Birthday was fun. Throw up was everywhere, thanks Birthday Girl. I love you.
Been chillin’ with new people.
So I thought it would take forever but I am officially over my last relationship. I was already over the relationship and the guy. I just needed to get over the remembering of memories and being sad about the good times. ALL DONE!! =]
I love Nick!
I’ve just been living it up and having fun! I’m learning how good the single life is again. It’s pretty tight.