How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
I would assume that I would be the age that I am, seeing as how I would not be able to pretend as if I did not know me
Which is worse, failing or never trying?
That is a hard one. Once I commit myself to something, I am motivated to not fail. Especially if knowing that most people’s first try is a failure, I tend to do whatever I can to succeed. But with never trying, it is as if you have already failed for not giving it a chance. So I would say failing because I see “never trying” as failing.
If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
Because we are human and humans are stupid. Humans do things they don’t like because they never know what to do, so they just listen to whoever will tell them what they should do. And it is not that we can’t do the things we like, we are just too lazy to do things because we think it is out of reach when really you are not allowing your arm to be long enough to reach for what you want(which is your like).
When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
I am not that type of person, I say shit I mean and will attain all that I have planned for in life. Although at this point, I don’t know half of what I want quite yet.
What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
We wouldn’t be molded into the people we are meant to become if the world were to be different from how it is meant to be, which is how the world is now. I guess I can say many things about changes in government, the economy, changes world wide that I think would make a difference, but that is not for me to fret about. I like our corrupt, unfair world. It gives us character.
If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
I think this is a stupid question.
Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
To be quite frank, I am going with the flow of wherever my life and decisions take me. I don’t really think about where I am heading much because there is so much in between that I plan to accomplish that probably will not get me to my destination but will make me feel as though my life is becoming more and more complete as days go by. I will never settle for anything. I will always set more goals and push myself to the limit always. I never want things to be easy, that’s lame. I am pursuing what I believe I will be amazing in.
If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
I can’t imagine my life past tomorrow. I just go with whatever the day has in store. I really can not even picture what my life would be like in even five years. So much can change in a month, in a week, in a day. Especially with my life, things are so spontaneous, you’ll never know what to expect. So as of now, my answer would be that I would not live my life any differently because I think I live it to the fullest already. Appreciating all that I have: family, friends, material things and all.
To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
210 degrees, I am not quite sure how to respond to this question. I don’t think a person should ever feel out of control of their own life but I could understand how in certain situations people feel as though they couldn’t help how the final outcome came about. I think I have controlled most of the course of my life due to being able to be in control of my emotions. I choose to be happy even when happiness seems to be so far out of reach because in most situations in my life, you can’t do much but say “it happened, what else can you do? Not much at all but fuck the bullshit and move on”
Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
I am not a person that worries much at all. I always go into something making sure I do it right or at least try to. If I don’t do it right, I try again until I get it right. There’s not much to worry about when you believe that you can do something, even if it takes multiple attempts. And morally, I always want to do the right thing and I choose to do the right thing.
You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
First of all, I don’t admire anyone so I wouldn’t be afraid to say anything worrying about how it would affect anyone. And if I respect them, I wouldn’t disrespect them for how they personally feel about something. Although, I am one to try and make everyone realize what they are doing. Since it was distasteful and unjustified I would criticize them on their unnecessary actions upon speaking about someone so crudely, especially if their shit talking is unjustified.
If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
Don’t be a crybaby.
Would you break the law to save a loved one?
I break the law to become intoxicated, it would be kind of lame if I didn’t defy the law to save a loved one.
Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
Gore/Horror films and art have got to be some of the most amazing.
What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
I really don’t know what I do differently from most people. I haven’t met all people or many different kinds of people to know whether I am like many or not. Oh I know, I look at myself differently from everyone. That’s fact, everyone does.
How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
Because my wants and needs are far from what others want and need. And sometimes people want and need the same thing but can’t have it because someone else already acquires it.
What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
There’s multiple things I have not done that I want to and it’s because I choose to focus on other things at the moment. I am putting those ventures on layaway. I wouldn’t say anything is holding me back, I just choose to accomplish something else on the list at the moment.
Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
I am not, and I love it.
If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
I would like to move to Germany because I want to live with Germany. We would get high and drink. And I could learn an angry language. And become a nazi. I am kidding, there’s an amazing school there that I would love to go to. I would be able to experience Europe and very conveniently.
Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
I do push it more than once, especially the slow ass elevator in my apartment complex. I do not believe it makes the elevator faster but it is something to do when you’re anxiously trying to hurry to shit or piss.
Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
I would rather know little about everything rather than a lot about one thing. I would rather be a joyful simpleton. I’d rather enjoy life than be a worry wart.
Why are you, you?
To be honest, I don’t have a clue. I just like knowing that I am well-informed about a lot, that I enjoy life, and that I like to stay happy. I like to surround myself around good spirits and vibes. I like when things are chill. I am me because I don’t give a shit about a lot. I don’t know if people see that as a bad thing but I am very happy with myself so it doesn’t matter.
Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
To be honest and not to be self-absorbed, but yes.
Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
Neither. My good friends moved to another country, it wasn’t a sad thing even if we did have the most amazing and honest friendship. We graduated and have moved on with our lives, it’s what we’re supposed to do, we’re happy for each other and will always have the memory of the most amazing friendship we could have ever had. I lost touch with many people but it’s life. I can make new friends and it gives me the opportunity to experience new things in my life.
What are you most grateful for?
Everything in my life, that’s for damn sure.
Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
Lose all of my old memories, I don’t remember much past yesterday anyway
Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
I am always down to challenge something. What is said to be the truth could be the truth if you first hear it but I would never want to be seen as gullible if the supposed truth turned out to be complete fallacy. I always like to do my research so I don’t look like a complete ass who has obviously been ill-informed.
Has your greatest fear ever come true?
I don’t have a greatest fear. As I have said many times and before, what fears me stirs my curiosity. I like to face what may possibly fear me and see if it really is a fear of mine and if I can overcome it.
Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?
I was thirteen… like I said before, I don’t remember much passed yesterday.
Does it really matter now?
I would never let my past affect me now, especially if I don’t remember it. And if it made me unhappy, I would probably rather have forgotten about it so it wouldn’t continue to make me unhappy in present day.
What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
Being so active in sports. I loved playing baseball/softball, volleyball, basketball, cheerleading. Baseball/softball was my absolute favorite. It created a close bond with my Pops and me. Me being quite the all star player made my dad proud of me, it was tight.
At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
Being given an adrenaline rush from doing something most people would not be able to accomplish makes me feel passionate and alive. Being pushed to the limit makes me feel passionate and alive.
Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
Silence is golden, yes. I really do love just chillin’ and enjoying each others company. I get too lazy to talk sometimes and being silent and happy can be very much enjoyable.
Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
Because everyone does not believe in the same thing. Everyone does not believe in the same type of love as others. Just as everyone does not believe in the same type of God or spiritual figure as others. That’s something everyone in the world needs to understand. Opinions are based off of each individual and everyone believes in something slightly or completely different. We all need to understand that not everyone views things the way we do. But humans are all too stubborn. We all want to believe what we think and do is the right thing and the right way. There is no other way, apparently.
Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
No, I really do love working.
Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
More work I enjoy doing.
Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
No, thank god all my days tend to differentiate from each other. Everything is alway so spontaneous and unpredictable.
When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
Everyday, it’s a thing called life.
If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
Mum, Pops, Cophizzle, Baowser, Michael Phun, Glenn Manangan, Gerald Manangan, Cynthia Le, Robear, Michael Murallon, Ladd Fann, Chi Li and that’s the list for now.
Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
Hahaha no. That’s pathetic. Be happy with who you are and don’t have a care in the world for anyone.
What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
Anyone could be alive but actually living it instead of wasting away like a dead fish in a world of LIFE is something else. Truly living is enjoying each day for what it is. And making your own effort to go out there and experience it.
When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
I’ve never started to think of the risk and rewards, so for me, there’s no need to stop.
If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
We make mistakes every day. It’s stupid to be afraid to make em when we all do anyway and by choice.
What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
I know people judge me and I would not do anything differently because I do not care about being judged.
When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
I love everything in my life, truly. Enjoying work, being excited for school to start, not being a negative nancy about the smallest of stupid situations, being down for everything always, etc. etc.
In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
I highly doubt it, I have a terrible memory.
Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
I am damn well making decisions for my damn self. =]